number 4

i really don't get it. i really cannot begin to even fathom the idea of why God is so good. my flesh just wants to see His face, right now and ask Him... WHY! WHY ME? WHY HIM? WHY HER? WHY ALL OF US??!?!!?!?!!11 God is answering my prayers. God has been so present and i simply just don't get it. i mess up. i mess up everyday. i mess up several times a day probably and yet, He is still sitting there smiling at me. He is still sitting there holding out His hand and telling me that i am His beloved and He will never leave me. that He is always watching over me. that He is real. that He wants me. that He wants all of me and He will do whatever it takes to rescue me from anything that i could potentially become. for that i am so eternally grateful. am i worthy of it? probably not. but i am sure glad that He loves me.

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And the heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way He loves us.

i love you Lord. thanks, you're real great.

number 3

DTS has begun. and it is such an exciting time. i am feeling so blessed to be a part of such an amazing time in peoples' lives. all of the students are just so great and it is so clear that God is already moving so hard in their hearts like He never has before. i am feeling so encouraged today especially by them. this morning we had such an amazing time of worship and prayer and just complete brokenness before the Lord. without going into much detail, so many were just simply "set-free" today. set-free of the bondages that were holding them down. and then God gave me such a good word that i was impressed by myself by just looking at our theme verse for the DTS as it was written on the white board.

Titus 2:11-12
FoR the grace of God that bRings salvation as appeared to all men.
it teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and woRldly passions, and to live self-contRolled, upRight and godly lives in this present age.

so just look at the verse carefully, the person who wrote it on the board tends to write with mixed capital and lower-case letters inadvertently, but as i was looking at the verse and just pondering it, i noticed something really great. i noticed that the words grace, appeared, and present each had lower-case "R's" and the rest of the words with the letter "R" had all upper-case. i really feel like this is no mistake. i believe that God purposely made the infamous katie g. write it just this way for a reason. it was so clear. i looked up in my bible the meaning of "grace" according to the word and this is what i got:

Grace - an undeserved favor or gift; the undeserved forgiveness, kindness and mercy that God gives us.

look at that! its so great! and so true! we are so undeserving off the goodness that He brings our way. the undeserving mercy and grace that He has upon us no matter our situation. this morning , students just gave up things that truly hold them back from entering into deeper intimacy with God, things that held them back from living a "normal" life. things that are just distracting. and what did God do to them this morning? gave them grace. gave them mercy. his GRACE APPEARED PRESENT!! sooooo good!

number two

Here i am, back in LA. in classy condo (trailer) number seven. i am so excited to be back here and begin my two-year commitment with YWAM on staff. this fall i will be staffing the DTS (discipleship training school) and i do not think i could be more excited for this. this is something that i have been praying for, for a real long time and it finally being here is really surreal. it is such a blessing to be in the middle of God's plan. real great!

i just spent the past two weeks back at home (chicago) and my dads new home (toledo, ohio). both were real great and a good time to just unwind, process and get ready for this next season in my life. while at home in chicago, i spent much time just being with friends, pour into and get poured into spiritually, go to churchy, and just be with God. right when i left, as in on the plane to go back to chicago, i was listening to some worship music and i just started crying just thinking about how good God is. i seriously just don't get it! and then while being home, i was just overflowing with joy of the Lord and was crying during worship at church almost non-stop each weekend, while talking with a few people about what God is doing in my life and it was just so good. it was an honest answer to prayer, to just be broken before Him and trust that He has it all under control. so good!

yesterday while i was on my plane back here to LA, i found myself in the book of Psalms. Psalm 33 to be exact. and then i couldn't get my eyes off of the last few verses...

but the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him,

on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,

to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.

we wait in hope for the Lord; 

he is our help and our shield.

in him our hearts rejoice

for we trust in his holy name.

may your unfailing love rest upon us, o Lord

even as we put our hope in you.

just look at that, its so great! what really stands out to me the most here is those who fear him and his unfailing love. dude, seriously. i fear God with all of my heart. i once heard in a sermon that the fear of the Lord is fearing that He will take His hands off of you. and its so true and it just hits my heart so hard. i FEAR that. i am scared out of my mind that it will happen. 

and honestly, i pray for that for all my friends. that they just get complete fear of the Lord. complete brokenness. complete wanting to just give it all up and begin and end their day with Christ as the director, just constantly moving them forward. that is so much his character too. constant. UNFAILING. great!

number one

something that i have been trying to get my mind around lately that i will never or nobody on earth will ever understand is one question. why is God so good to us? seriously now. i just don't get it and i love that. that is exactly the kind of relationship i want and need with anyone. someone who will constantly do what it takes to make me draw closer and want more and more with each day that passes by us. it just completely expands my mind just thinking about why did God choose me, really. why did God think that i, bobby bo, was "good enough". what qualified me to walk with Him? all i know is that im real glad that it happened. 

with this journal i am hoping to really dive into my thoughts and get them down. and i hope that it will be a source of encouragement to myself and to others to see what is going on and what blessings are so present in my life. and with each post i hope to post atleast one picture and one verse or lyric that is on my heart at that moment. so with that, welcome to my life. 

you said there was nothing left down here

well i roamed around the wasteland and i swear i found something.

i found hope, i found God.

i found the dreams of the believers

oh, God! save us all.