selfless.

phuket_2

2009-04-19T17:13:00.000-07:00

tonight was one of those nights that you knew was just supposed to happen exactly the way it did for a reason. there is no way that tonight could of happened without our amazing God setting up such divine appointments for us and just letting Him work and speak and act through us in such ways. i am so thankful and just simply in awe of My God.

phuket, thailand

2009-04-10T12:12:00.000-07:00

i am in phuket, thailand right now laying in my bed about to go to sleepy. but i am just so stoked on what happened tonight and what we are doing here. we are partnering up with a ministry called SHE (self, help, empower) and the focus is on the bar girls of patong beach in the red-light district down here and we just go and talk/build relationship with the girls and let the Will, come to reality. it is so encouraging what God is doing here. tonight i got the opportunity to talk with a friend, kong, about the gospel and it was just so good. it just felt right. i am so excited for her life and her friendship. i want to always stay in close relationship with her to just follow up and pray for a continuance of this journey. God is so faithful. it is all about Jesus and that is the bottom line. thank you LORD!

i am second.

2009-03-05T21:50:00.000-08:00

so last night i was stumbling around the internet in search for some encouragement. why was i looking on the internet for encouragement? good question! but then there it was a facebook status that said "Kenny wants everybody to go to http://www.iamsecond.com/" simple enough. so i went. this site is just full of video-testimonies of real people giving their stories. musicians. actors. athletes. business people. your next door neighbor. everyday people. and i am across one in particular that i came away with the fulfillment i was in search for... encouragement!

this particular story is one of Brian "Head" Welch, who is formally of the hard-rock band, Korn. it really touched my heart and i hope it can bless you the way that it blessed me last night.

live love! bobby bo.

its all about You.

2009-02-26T06:59:00.000-08:00

im continuing to see that its not about me. obviously. its never about us. its all about Jesus. for real. its all about Jesus. here is a guy, a real dude, who came down, nothing special about him. he had no beauty had no majesty. had nothing about him that would make us desire him (isaiah 53:2). just a dude. but then this ordinary guy died for us. he took all of our crap. all of our stuff. our worries. our sins. our desires. he took it all upon himself, and humbly layed down his life so that we can be a free people. so that we could enter into relationship with our God. the big man. the creator of the heavens and earth. how selfless. how amazing. how blessed are we to of had someone who cared enough about his neighbors. past-present-future. thousands of years in the future neighbors. he cared that much.

i want to live like that. i want to continue to daily take up my cross and surrender it all to my maker.

God, i thank you for this life you have given to me. plese help me never take advantage of it no matter my circumstances. i just want to stay in a constant satisfaction of who you are and what you are always doing in me, through me and around me. thank you for your everlasting love. youre amazing.

love. bobby bo.

God is neat.

2009-02-08T00:26:00.000-08:00

yea, this is real overdue. but long story short. i have been in Thailand for the past 2 months leading a DTS outreach and God is continue to literally just change my life. its so great.

Today is our final day here and this week was our debrief week to relfect on how sweet God is and what He has done in each of us the past 2 months. and one day we were to answer the question, "where are you doing and why are you going" and here is my response from my personal journal.

i am going to thailand because i know and trust that God has something huge for me. God has a way of being so rediculous. but in the best way possible. i love my maker so much. to me, what is the point of worrying about what is going to happen in the future. i am just wasting my time, literally. because if i dwell, i will not get that time back. ever. i have one life here on earth and how will i be a world changer if i am by myself asking God, how or when or why or where or what or who. His word says that He will be with us. its so simple! "i will be with you" how comforting! there are millions and millions of followers doing work for the body of christ but God knows bobby bo. He has a plan specifically designed for me. who can stop God's plans? no one. nothing. God is everywhere. he is in the air. he is in the trees and in the leaves. he is in the water and in the mountains. he is in the valleys and the fields that cover hthis world. He is living inside of me. living inside of us each. my make is huge. my maker is awesome. my maker has dreams and desires designed for bobby. how great is that. real great.

and then the day after, i posed the question..what do you want to give praise to God for and what are you thankful for in this time...

i want to praise the father for just bringing me back here. im thankful for the way God has used myself and the team to fulfill the great commission according to his will. it was really showing how faithful he is and all the goodness that He is. he is goodness and love. 1john talks all about that love. love! love! love! "we love because he loved us first. 1john 4:19. he loved us FIRST. we were in his mind before our own parents minds. we were are and always will be his dream. his lift. his soldier. i love that. that he chose me specifically fo thailand from december 7 til february 9. everyday he used me. whether i felt it or not. he used me. he used the team to minister to thousands of people. thats so sweet. how many people we were able to witness to. build relationship. build into lives. minister into hearts. fulfill his will. plant his seeds. soooo good!

what im thankful for...

finances for outreach.
open doors.
at peace heart
God fulfilling his promises.
brittanys heart for worship
chris' gentle heart
JK's precious life.
yann's firm faith
manon's elegance.
beka's warm mother heart
bethany's passion for freedom of thai people.
mon (translator) heart to be a light for her own people.
the way my maker loves
brokenss for his people
freedom
answered players
the way he listens. cares. wants to fulfill our desires.

thanks God. you are a real classy and stand up guy.

number 4

2008-10-01T15:16:00.000-07:00

i really don't get it. i really cannot begin to even fathom the idea of why God is so good. my flesh just wants to see His face, right now and ask Him... WHY! WHY ME? WHY HIM? WHY HER? WHY ALL OF US??!?!!?!?!!11 God is answering my prayers. God has been so present and i simply just don't get it. i mess up. i mess up everyday. i mess up several times a day probably and yet, He is still sitting there smiling at me. He is still sitting there holding out His hand and telling me that i am His beloved and He will never leave me. that He is always watching over me. that He is real. that He wants me. that He wants all of me and He will do whatever it takes to rescue me from anything that i could potentially become. for that i am so eternally grateful. am i worthy of it? probably not. but i am sure glad that He loves me.

He is jealous for me,
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree,
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realize just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
We are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
If grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking.
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss,
And the heart turns violently inside of my chest,
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
When I think about, the way He loves us.

i love you Lord. thanks, you're real great.

number 3

2008-09-24T14:09:00.000-07:00

DTS has begun. and it is such an exciting time. i am feeling so blessed to be a part of such an amazing time in peoples' lives. all of the students are just so great and it is so clear that God is already moving so hard in their hearts like He never has before. i am feeling so encouraged today especially by them. this morning we had such an amazing time of worship and prayer and just complete brokenness before the Lord. without going into much detail, so many were just simply "set-free" today. set-free of the bondages that were holding them down. and then God gave me such a good word that i was impressed by myself by just looking at our theme verse for the DTS as it was written on the white board.

Titus 2:11-12
FoR the grace of God that bRings salvation as appeared to all men.
it teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and woRldly passions, and to live self-contRolled, upRight and godly lives in this present age.

so just look at the verse carefully, the person who wrote it on the board tends to write with mixed capital and lower-case letters inadvertently, but as i was looking at the verse and just pondering it, i noticed something really great. i noticed that the words grace, appeared, and present each had lower-case "R's" and the rest of the words with the letter "R" had all upper-case. i really feel like this is no mistake. i believe that God purposely made the infamous katie g. write it just this way for a reason. it was so clear. i looked up in my bible the meaning of "grace" according to the word and this is what i got:

Grace - an undeserved favor or gift; the undeserved forgiveness, kindness and mercy that God gives us.

look at that! its so great! and so true! we are so undeserving off the goodness that He brings our way. the undeserving mercy and grace that He has upon us no matter our situation. this morning , students just gave up things that truly hold them back from entering into deeper intimacy with God, things that held them back from living a "normal" life. things that are just distracting. and what did God do to them this morning? gave them grace. gave them mercy. his GRACE APPEARED PRESENT!! sooooo good!

number two

2008-09-08T20:13:00.000-07:00

Here i am, back in LA. in classy condo (trailer) number seven. i am so excited to be back here and begin my two-year commitment with YWAM on staff. this fall i will be staffing the DTS (discipleship training school) and i do not think i could be more excited for this. this is something that i have been praying for, for a real long time and it finally being here is really surreal. it is such a blessing to be in the middle of God's plan. real great!

i just spent the past two weeks back at home (chicago) and my dads new home (toledo, ohio). both were real great and a good time to just unwind, process and get ready for this next season in my life. while at home in chicago, i spent much time just being with friends, pour into and get poured into spiritually, go to churchy, and just be with God. right when i left, as in on the plane to go back to chicago, i was listening to some worship music and i just started crying just thinking about how good God is. i seriously just don't get it! and then while being home, i was just overflowing with joy of the Lord and was crying during worship at church almost non-stop each weekend, while talking with a few people about what God is doing in my life and it was just so good. it was an honest answer to prayer, to just be broken before Him and trust that He has it all under control. so good!

yesterday while i was on my plane back here to LA, i found myself in the book of Psalms. Psalm 33 to be exact. and then i couldn't get my eyes off of the last few verses...

but the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him,

on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,

to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.

we wait in hope for the Lord;

he is our help and our shield.

in him our hearts rejoice

for we trust in his holy name.

may your unfailing love rest upon us, o Lord

even as we put our hope in you.

just look at that, its so great! what really stands out to me the most here is those who fear him and his unfailing love. dude, seriously. i fear God with all of my heart. i once heard in a sermon that the fear of the Lord is fearing that He will take His hands off of you. and its so true and it just hits my heart so hard. i FEAR that. i am scared out of my mind that it will happen.

and honestly, i pray for that for all my friends. that they just get complete fear of the Lord. complete brokenness. complete wanting to just give it all up and begin and end their day with Christ as the director, just constantly moving them forward. that is so much his character too. constant. UNFAILING. great!

number one

2008-09-04T12:52:00.000-07:00

something that i have been trying to get my mind around lately that i will never or nobody on earth will ever understand is one question. why is God so good to us? seriously now. i just don't get it and i love that. that is exactly the kind of relationship i want and need with anyone. someone who will constantly do what it takes to make me draw closer and want more and more with each day that passes by us. it just completely expands my mind just thinking about why did God choose me, really. why did God think that i, bobby bo, was "good enough". what qualified me to walk with Him? all i know is that im real glad that it happened.

with this journal i am hoping to really dive into my thoughts and get them down. and i hope that it will be a source of encouragement to myself and to others to see what is going on and what blessings are so present in my life. and with each post i hope to post atleast one picture and one verse or lyric that is on my heart at that moment. so with that, welcome to my life.

you said there was nothing left down here

well i roamed around the wasteland and i swear i found something.

i found hope, i found God.

i found the dreams of the believers

oh, God! save us all.